For the past five years, each month, I've created a discussion outline and hashed a couple of topics out with a group of our local community members. During a recent meeting I was talking about self-advocacy, and I realized that I kept sharing information that isn't super comfortable or flattering to me. It's vulnerable bits.
Yep, I still struggle with overnight visits, in every direction. Yep, I still feel hurt if my spouse takes off their ring while they're out with another partner. Yep, I still get twitchy when my submissive partner has marks I didn't make. Yep, I still have feelings of territorial nature around "my" bed, and make requests around that. Add that all together, and it makes me look neurotic, insecure, and perhaps even a bit controlling. It's not even a comprehensive list. And that's okay. I'm working on all of that, and making progress that I, my partners, and my metamours, would say is demonstrable.
One of the biggest disservices that anyone in a functional, healthy, happy poly dynamic can choose is to make out as though they don't have ANY issues, anything they're working on, any points of growth they're addressing when discussing poly with others. There is no such thing as perfection, and those who pretend their relationships are flawless, particularly while espousing high ideals they fail to achieve, hit my hypocrisy button. At the least, say that this is what you're working towards.
To those who are working on things: Stay open! Be forthcoming. Sure, there are going to be things that are too hot to handle in the moment, but after the fact, bring it out into the light. Talk about the challenges you've faced, and how accord has been reached. Talk about the failures, the meltdowns, the moments where despair was high, then share how you were able to reach deep, and pull things you didn't even know you had from the recesses of your soul, how your partners helped hold you up, not by giving you a pass, but by staying with you through those struggles.
Only through shared vulnerability can we help each other grow, without having to recreate the wheel in each and every poly relationship.